Just Starting To Think

That I must have something in me that is like an automatic mess up button, because as I think over the opportunities that I've had, and the things that I've done to sabotage myself, I have no choice but to feel like There is something wrong with me that is making just mess up when the going get's good and try to crawl back all to mess up again when the going get's tough. IM PISSED ME ME GEEZUS FIX ME HURRY CAUSE I CAN'T KEEP ON LIKE THIS IT'S TO MUCH!! HELP ME LORD NOW!